To say this week has been interesting may just be an understatement, depending on what part of it you carw to mention. Monday, bloody Monday haha! Yeah..Monday was a little too intense for my liking and if I could take part of it I’d love to but, at the same time maybe not. I have a firm belief that if things hadn’t happened the way they did, then maybe we’d all still be in the dark about certain things. Really gotta love those moments that cause a chain reaction and that chain reaction ends up ripping everything you had stored away wide open for the world. It’s never fun re-living anything bad much less the things that exploded out on Monday but, I guess sometimes it just has to happen.

Moving on..

I did something today, something that I’ve always had issues with..being honest with friends. Now, I can be honest with friends but I have always had trouble being brutally honest and just laying it out there especially with the friends I care alot about so today was a small breakthrough. I felt horrible about it at first because just after I told her exactly what I thought and how I felt she proceeded to tell me how I hurt her and had even made her cry, boy did that suck. I was instantly kicking myself because seriously? Who wants to hurt a friend, especially when you know they need you at that moment? Thought continued running through my mind about how stupid I’d be for saying it and even though I knew it was the right thing to do, I felt shitty for doing it. However, I recieved a text a few hours later and she told me that what I had said was exactly what she’d needed to hear and THANK YOU. All I wanted to do was get through to her and to really help her deal with the situation she’s handling and after today I truly think she’ll come out of this 100% better, and despite what her other friend seems to think of what was said it was true and it needed to be heard. - Scratch all of that..it’s all bullshit and I was wrong.

xoxo!

Am I the only one who thinks it’s pointless for fans to scrutinize over certain celebrities personal lives? Now don’t me wrong I am all for celeb. gossip I mean, it’s like a drug sometimes but that’s not exactly what I’m talking about here. What I’m talking about is a handful of things, like people spazzing out over little things that most of the time mean nothing at all. Like say, a girl is sporting a ring on her left hand..would that be an automatic sign of an engagement? Some people would think so but, for the love of god what makes people notice these little details when looking at photos of any celebrity? I wear a ring on my left hand and I’m not engaged. People wear rings and they sometimes wear them on their left hands and *gasp* some of them aren’t married or engaged…who woulda thunk it!

Another thing that’s been on my mind lately is why fans of certain people feel the need to hate on/verbally beat down the signifcant others of people they are “supposed” fans of. Does that really make you a fan if you are constantly acting like a stuck up 7 year old, okay so you don’t like who this or that person is dating/married to. What’s the big deal? Just because you oppose whatever they’re doing with whoever their doing it with doesn’t mean it’s going to go away. If they’re happy then you should be happy for them, seriously what’s the point of hating? Is this crap what being a fan is about? I thought it was about appreiciating and admiring someone’s work and supporting them you know, the things of value…guess I missed the memo about the change.

Maybe it’s just me thinking to much or maybe it’s the fact it’s 4am and once again, I can’t sleep but I just don’t get it.

You ever have one of those lazy Sunday’s? Well crap what am I saying practially every Sunday is lazy but, there is something about this one Sunday that has been extremely lazy. Since the second I woke up I’ve felt drained and sleepy which is just not like me, being bored out of my skull is very me but even that’s taken a step up today. Everything just seems to be going in slow motion, and not the cool kind of slow motion that you’d usually giggle your undies off at. This is just the slow ‘drag on forever’ type of motion, which is BORING as a motha!

Maybe it’s just my random brain in overdrive about this lazy Sunday stuff but hey that’s just me. =P